The Hangover

I went to a bachelorette party on Saturday. I drank a lot. I woke up in a hazy, hungover stupor.

Maybe it was the fact I didn't eat much, I only had a 1/2 a box of Mac and cheese all day Saturday. Jeff kindly reminded me that I shouldn't be eating cheese, but I informed him that it was in his best interest that I get a good base for Saturday night's festivities. Turns out, it probably wouldn't have mattered what I ate before I went out because I had way too much fun for that to even factor in.

The old adage is that as you age, the mind is sometimes willing but the body can be no longer able. This is how I feel about going out. I'm two times slower to recover, two times more likely to feel absolutely awful, and eighty times more likely to want to eat the worst thing I possibly can to make myself feel better the next day. This was the first time I have gone out full on since becoming vegetarian, and man was it hard for me Sunday morning (iactuallymeansundayafternoonat2pmwheniwokeup). I wanted bacon. I wanted eggs. I wanted a burger, a steak, a gyro. Pulled pork, BLT, patty melt. I wanted anything besides something without meat.

What this showed me is at this point, consistency is still key. I eat the same thing for breakfast every day. I eat the same thing for lunch, unless I have leftovers. I have a few go-to meals. I love food; I consider myself a foodie even, but staying in a pattern right now until I reach a more comfortable and safe place is what is going to carry me through this. I need to know what my options are in every situation. Luckily for me, I was so nauseous that I didn't really have the willpower to make a bad decision.

Just when I was at my weakest, the universe sent me a message when I least expected it. I had been dealing with the cravings all day, and suddenly, during the Grammys, this commercial aired from chipotle. It's small steps like this that remind me why I started this journey
to begin with.

And even though the cravings still lingered today, I'm proud to say, I resisted the temptations and am still meat free.

http://m.youtube.com/index?desktop_uri=%2F&gl=US#/watch?v=aMfSGt6rHos

http://www.thedailybeast.com/newsweek/2008/05/03/a-chain-that-pigs-would-die-for.html